As a youth I felt safer having gay sex with much older men than guys my age who could be dangerous. Sure they were not physically attractive but they knew how to take control and guide me in ways to stimulate them. I let them know I had an obsession to swallow cum and they were always willing to finish in my mouth to satisfy my craving.
Hooked up with an older bear like this when I was in my early 20s. Saw each other in the locker room and he was always so nice and warm. I got hard in front of him one day in the showers because I couldn’t stop fantasizing about sucking him and him entering my hole. I tried to hide it but showers were open and he noticed and smiled at me. I didn’t think he was gay but he asked if I wanted to come back to his house and play. He was just as gentle in the bedroom and was happy I found him and his cock attractive. Stayed the night with him a few times, completely naked all night and had sex multiple times. I’m not sure how many loads I took off his that day/night/morning but it was quite a few.